Well...its over

this is sad!! Prepared 4 so long...everything turns out to be perfect!! except the results...

Now every one is very sad...and how to cheer them up? I am sad and disappointed also... helpless! Don want 2 face anyone...If there is anything unhappy happening in our drama grp, I will always be the one tt makes everybody recover soon..but... now everybody is facing the same prob...how to pursuade myself to go out of this sadness, when I am deeply sad and feeling so empty inside my heart?

How to tell QT, CQ, ZN etc...abt this? They will surely ask de... then han xiao jie, hehe...we were so confident, and we even planned to where and when to watch Spider Man 3 2gether after all this, and planned how to celebrate our winnings...everything seems to be no use already..

the piano version of Ju Hua Tai....hehe, juz rite to fit the mood.... Learning to play it now...maybe can play in sch. next week..

Bad Day... Fake a Smile or Juz Look Sad....????

happy? happy!!

hehe... last Sunday is the zaoao 10th exco investiture....I am in the exco again!! haha..from 9th to the 10th..hmm.... I like it, i like it, i like it! haha.. Ni shuai, CQ etc...all these friends are from zaobao, and so lucky tt I became noe them and make best friends with them!!

After the investiture, we all went for exco outing....then we juz wandered around at the Toa Payoh bus exchange..then finally decide to eat at KFC....wat de....but at least we have all the friends around..then I ate 2gether w zhe nan...and told him all my 不爽 towards him last time when we made calls..hehe, talk talk and talk, never give him a change 2 explain!! am I too evil?????? haha...then he firstly felt very blur..then...haha...forget wat he said already, but its sth. which makes me feel relieved again..hehe, best friends may sometimes hurt each other also, but wats important...is to calm down and erase all these unhappiness openly~ then I went w him to his hostel, anyways..it is shun lu de....and then my director called me to rush back to my hostel to practice drama..haha, then seemed tt I need to take a taxi and go back..but I don have money!!! seriously...short of money these days! then zhe nan lent me money, and haha..thats more than enuf!!

my director said I improved a lot and a lot these days..this really makes me very happy..is it becoz I can no longer to go to zao bao everyday for the investiture rehearsal, so I can become more concentrated in this SYF thing? I don noe...but one thing for sure..I still have the spirit to fight on!

later last nite CQ also sent sms to me to encourage me to fight on...and..haha, really...always feel touched abt all his attempts! best friends!

then juz now when I checked my mail box, I received email from MY abt his PI..haha, after I read thru the thing, feel tt this time the draft is much much better..or is it becoz some of the draft were editted by me? Am I over self-esteem again?? hehe..don noe...later we chatted thru MSN, haha...and got nice music to share!! hmm...all the best for all our future tests!!!

hehe...forgot to mention han xiao jie..haha, really...she is now the person who I wanna approach whenever I feel happy or sad....haha, sometimes juz a hug will do! Thx a lot!!!!

juz have a feeling tt all my friends are around me again!! hehe...Aries is like this lol...very easy to get down and become sad...but its also fast for Aries to become happy! and FRIENDS is the most important element...I still believe this!

Thoughts for these days: Never Give Up! These would always be hope!! A ZA A ZA FIGHTING!

All the best for my SYF Chinese drama central judging this coming Sat.!

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These days, no internet access in hostel!!! ahh....havent contacted mum for soo long~ yesterday was the Chinese Curretn Affairs Competition... Our drama grp was supposed to act b4 the final round started, juz as some kind of relaxation..then juz after tt, our director said tt actually we had lots of probs -- the actors couldnt speak out loudly, and the audience couldnt hear clearly, so they were confused, then they said tt we were acting so fast, so at times they couldnt catch up w the plots...sigh... prepare for so long, and the response is still like this... and the director talked to me personally, saying very very seriously tt if i still couldnt raise my voice, the whole grp would suffer juz becoz of me, saying tt we prepare everyday juz to win the gold w honour prize, she doesnt want any one to act wrongly...by the time I heard this, I felt very very sad, and quite depressed...really...so many things to do, I am really tired...how could u expect someone who is extremely tired to stand up and be soooo active?? .. and I noe I have this problem of speaking out loudly, but could u pls juz kindly kindly talk abt this instead of scolding me?? I will definitely improve on my own and become better and better....I juz need some encouragement...
then later she also sent sms to me to reemphasize this...that was e time I broke down...

Crying and crying...but luckily han xiao later found me and listened to all my sad stories..then she tried to encourage me and tell me all the gd things that was going to happen soon~ then in the evening...trying to call ZN to talk abt things happening around me these days, juz like the way we usually did in the past..hehe, every week surely called each other to seek encouragement..but we only talked abt 10 secs...he said he was doing GPP for PW, then he was talking w me in ENGLISH!! ahh...this is not the way we used to do...really felt sad..didnt feel the sense of friendship at all.. hehe, maybe he was tooo busy...and maybe yesterday was not the right time to call him and let him listen to my stories...but...luckily, later I called CQ, then he was really..haha, very good at making others happy.. he kept singing qi li xiang, although a bit out of tune, its still very nice! he told me to take care, and face all the difficulties and challenges, coz "after all the cloudness, or rainy days, tmw will be full of sunshine~!" and really.. I felt much much better...

Thoughts of e day: Although we couldnt really depend absolutely on anybody to pursue happiness....they could help u a lot....or sadly speaking, they wont be free to listen to you...but what is important... is to have someone beside u when you need some encouragement. and FRIENDS, thank you~!

Thinking of talking to ZN this Friday abt how sad I felt after the short conversation w him? this is not they way we used to do.. There must be sth. wrong...

Cya!

is it TRUE?????

Your Love Number is 3
You're confident and charming, which makes you able to keep your relationships fresh.A true perfectionist, you give your all (and then some!) to your sweetie.Honest, funny, and kind... you are the ideal lover for many.Just don't let your jealousy get the best of you!

p.s. these days keep receving friends' messages saying "Add Oil!!" to me...does it mean "jia you"...is it common 4 ppl to use this phrase? omg..seems tt I am so out of fashion...!!!

Haha...These days were really busy...but luckily I had many returns which I believe was becoz of all my hardwork...actually I don see any direct link btw my active involvement in CCAs and any rewards of my academic work...but maybe these 2 are related somehow...and I am very suprise w tt!
woohoo!!! My first time to pass my GP essay since JC life started!!! My mark was usually abt 22 or 23,hehe...but this time!!! it is 14 + 11..and it is 25!!! haha...total mark is 50, fail content section by 1 mark, but pass language section by 1 mark, so overall...I pass!!!!!! haha, feel so excited and happy!! maybe this mark is sth. not very nice to show for others... but for me its different...coz I confess tt my English skill is not very good, and for me to pass GP juz for my 2nd essay is really a reward for me lol...I really don noe whether all the readings of TIME or Straits Times were useful or not, but....hehe, I really think tt this is a great..and a dramatic improvement of me, and I noe tt there is a lot more room 4 improvement later on...so my next aim of GP: hahahahaha... hope I can get C plus for my future essays.. Oh yeah...the comprehension paper is also quite difficult for me, so juz do my best, and see what I can get for my mid-yr exam...hope I can pass as well!!! must set low standard initially, and achieve aims step by step!!! haha.... there is a long way to go, but it is not without any hope~

Chinese Drama still preparing.. hehe, I improved a lot on my acting, and this time I was acting a woman who was 48, and hasnt married yet... haha, and ppl said tt I was more and more like her charactor lol..juz hope tt after all this competition and the concert thingy, I could naturally go back to my own charactor...haha, muz change back soon!! Do hope tt my drama will win sth. for the SYF competition, it is really huge efforts...we practice everyday untill 11p.m....everyday after I went back, I really felt tired...but still had the spirit to revise all the new things learnt, and finish tutorials on time...hehe, my time management skills thus improved a lot...and I do appreciate whatever I am doing now..yup yup... "ONCE IN A LIFETIME" should treasure everything, coz they are of the best values at the present...and juz keep telling myself tt I will always have some returns after all this hardwork...

hehe..sign.... PI needs to redo...my chosen person was not significant enuf!!! ahhh....but its ok lar...still have some time to catch up, and have some ideas already...so juz relax, and I believe tt I can do it!!

Preparing a bday gift for my friend..hehe, great minds think alike...

Some thoughts for these days: When God closes one door for you here, he would surely open another window for you somewhere else.....and as long as we don give up, when there is will, there is hope!

p.s.: although tired, I feel tt it is really refreshing after I wrote all these things out...haha, feel the spirit to fight on again! Cya!

Fun!

haha, my 3rd time of logging into my blog!! hahaz... not bad not bad..

2day go class outing..woohoo! 07s48 ROX!

We first went to east coast to ride bike!! haha..but e thing is...I don noe how 2 cycle!!! luckily got all my nice classmates, they taught me how to do it, then i juz kept trying and trying...finally I could cycle for some distance, but not balanced yet!! I think I juz need more practice and never give up!! haha..yup yup, very happy.... never believe tt I would be able to learn how to cycle b4, but actually I did it!! juz in half an hour...will practice more these days, hopefully I will finally do it by June Holidays...so tt during the holidays, can go out and play, and listen to my music..and feel the sea breeze!! woohoo! so cool!!!

then we went to Sandra's house and BBQ...haha, I almost spent the whole evening playing cards, n...quite lazy lol...never went to the BBQ pit and do sth. for others... hehe, so next time really need to be more considerate to others' feelings, and try to be a better person!!

I really like my class! although not enough girls..hehe, but still very fun!! I like all my classmates, we take care of each other! haha..hmm....abt the angel and mortal game, hehe...although Joel never wrote to me...hehe, I still gave him a little gift.....n guess tt Sandra is my angel,haha..hope she likes the mug that I gave her!!

Its realy fun to have my classmates around..I noe tt the following days may be tough and busy..and hectic also!! but lets juz do our best and see wat we can achieve!! I do believe tt this process will make us feel fulfilled already!!

juz never give up...and appreciate what we have...and life is like this lol!! in order not to regret, must treasure every moment from now on!

p.s.: these days, when I was down, and no one was around me... I really felt quite lonely..but I later found out tt juz becoz nobody was by your side doesnt mean you are not important...there will be some one who treats you as a mental support...hehe... thank you, Cheng qing.. you are really a very good friend 2 me, and hope we can remain good good friends, and BEST friends for a long time to come!! and also thank you for telling me some of your stories, and also for your great understanding~ haha.. I am always crazy abt doing things, and haha.. yup, sometimes I need someone to talk to, then I will calm down..
p.s.: feel better now after this terrible flu..and hope I will be alright next week~

Yup yup....let me introduce my favourite Japanese anime: The Fruits Basket!!!

It is realy a nice story...I was shocked by its creative beginning, followed by its touching storyline...hehe, its about a girl and a huge family consists of 12 Chinese zodiac..haha, really interesting...and hmm... I learnt a lot of things from this anime..about how to look at ppl and find out their true happiness, and how to listen to others' problems and solve them! hmm...also about how to be a more mature person, and never give up!!

This anime inspires a lot of ppl to move on...and this is really the nicest anime I have ever watched...(btw, I don watch anime often, plus I am too busy to watch)...but, but...if I have time, I will watch this again and again..

and the music is also very nice...although I don understand the lyrics...

the only lyric tt I can undrestand is...: Let's stay 2gether..isumo... and "isumo" in Japanese means "forever"...

p.s.: I have all the episodes for Fruits Basket...so anyone who wants 2 watch it, can juz look 4 me!

So far, the only RPG I enjoyed playing a lot is the , I like it becoz it is a nice
and touching stody, I like it becoz I learn a lot of thingys from this fantastic storyline..

The Miracle Fomula is also adopted from this game..and I plus another factor to be in: that is the power
to believe in yourself..

Having a flu these days, and whenever I feel down, I always remind myself of this fomula...this really helps
me a lot~